Am i going to be alright without that person?
They say, as long as it is not an oxygen, you could live well without it.
I was holding that person too long. Enough to make me attached to that person.
Someone even give me warning before. Warning about becoming too comfortable with that person and how ‘dangerous’ that person is.
Eventhough i clearly understand and always remember about that warning, my stupid feelings told me to go on with that person, as long as that person didn’t ‘harm’ me. And i was meant to build a wall between my ‘territory’ and his.
And then, that wall. . . didn’t last long. either that person could jump over to my ‘territory’, or i stupidly got curious about what is behind that wall. I didn’t build it right since the first time. Or am i purposely build a wall that could wreck easily?
I don’t know. All i know is I’m just too stupid for this kind of thing.
That person has been fill me up. That person has ability to make me do things that i’m not allowed to do for someone who doesn’t belong to me. And i don’t know when this things start to concern me.
Argh. Stupid is all over me. I’m sooooo childish to care about this whole thing. Actually i could leave anytime i would. But my stupid feeling didn’t let me to start a new life. Also my stupid feeling didn’t feels like let go that person.
“HEY STUPID! LIVE YOUR LIFE! DON’T GET ATTACHED! LET THAT PERSON AND YOUR STUPIDITY GO SO YOU WILL GAIN SO MUCH BETTER THING! Sincerely, from your heart and conscious mind”
PS : i don't know is this post appropriate for this blog. tonight i'm just so sensitive and want to let it out all the things that weight me down. so pardon my personal post tonight. at least for this time i'll publish this post, and someday i'll delete it.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
Hello. Rianindaa here. Jakarta, 14 Mei 1994. hobi menulis, design dan travelling. welcome to my world and enjoy the page!
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